Once I quit my well paid job in the telecommunication sector to move abroad for love. That love turned out to be one big scam und I felt really cheated - yes, my own responsibility, I was too willing to see just the positive sides of that relationship, I know.
So I decided to go back to Germany. That was a good decision, even though I didn't get back my old job and have done temp work since then.
I don't punish myself for having done all those mistakes, or should I say that one big mistake of being to eager to make it work. Overall I learned a lot out of that experience.

But ever since then I am as far away from a decent privat health insurance as the earth is from the moon.

To find a dermatologist as an ordinary public health patient is almost a complete impossibility.
Being turned down by the fifth one today ("We don't accept new public health patients untill next year") I could really cry over my stupidity and naivité back then and while I'm at it over all that spilled hope, too.